Blake Bivens, a minor from Tampa Bay Rays, said his "heart was turned to ash" when his wife, 1-year-old son and mother-in-law were killed this week.
"My life as I knew it is destroyed", the 24-year-old pitcher wrote Thursday in a post on Instagram, his first public statement after the murders. "The pain that I feel and my family is unbearable and cannot be expressed in words. I shake and tremble at the thought of our future without them. "
Bivens flew from a trip back to southern Virginia when he learned of Tuesday's tragedy. He was accompanied by biscuit manager Montgomery Morgan Ensberg.
"It was terrible," said Ensberg. "Blake is an incredibly strong man. He is an incredibly strong man, and he only went through a rotation of tears, and then he would have shaken and then he would have simply stared.
Bivens' wife's 18-year-old brother was charged with first-degree murder in the murders, which shocked his coaches, teammates and the community in which his family lived.
"You don't want it in any community, family," said Pittsylvania County Sheriff Mike Taylor. "We are a small community. It affects us all."
Bivens has published a series of photos of his wife Emily, 14-month-old son Cullen and mother-in-law Joan Bernard.
"Emily, my darling, you're the best wife and mother this world has ever seen," he wrote. "You made me the man I am today and you loved me with all my faults. You brought our precious child into this world and made our family complete. Your love and kindness have changed countless lives, including mine. "
Of Cullen, Bivens wrote "I can't breathe without you here" and "I finally understood what love was when you were born and I would do anything for you."
Court documents released Thursday revealed new details in the murders, but they did not explain what could have pushed Matthew Bernard, 18, to presumably kill his sister, his nephew and his mother.
In Montgomery, the Biscuits - a double A affiliate of the Tampa Bay Rays - painted "BIV" on the ground behind the home plate before a game against Pensacola. They had to keep a moment of silence before the game, with another scheduled before the home game of the Rays on Friday against the Cleveland Indians.
The neighbor then heard gunshots in the next house, police said. The neighbor went home and found a woman's body in the driveway. Inside, he found the other two bodies.
The officers found two victims with gunshot wounds to the head and shotgun shells near all three bodies.
A rifle was found in a wooded area behind the house and a club of blood was found in the garage, according to court documents.
The criminal complaint provided no reason for the killings and the authorities declined to comment.
After the bodies were discovered, a manhunt led up to 100 officers to Keeling, a small community near the border with North Carolina.
Bernard emerged naked from the woods about four hours later, passing in front of the TV cameras to a church parking lot, where he was recorded while trying to smother a church guardian.
An officer used pepper spray and hit Bernard with a stick before he was caught, officials said.
Bernard slammed his head against the cage in a police vehicle after he was taken into custody and taken to a hospital for treatment, police said. He was discharged from the hospital and taken to prison on Thursday, where he was held without bail and kept under suicide control, police said.
Saturday a "celebration of life" service is planned for killed family members.
A vigil was held Wednesday night at the Danville River Church in Virginia. Senior pastor Jackie Poe led those in prayer for the Bivens and Bernard families.
Avery Stevens, pastor of Keeling Baptist Church, said he was in his office where he also worked as an insurance agent when he saw the television coverage of Bernard's capture near his church.
"This is a small rural community, fairly quiet most of the time like most small rural communities. But the fact is that it can happen anywhere and right there at your fingertips, "he said.
"Pray for the family," he said. "Pray for the community. Pray for healing. "