His name was Noa Pothoven, he was 17 and his story comes from the Netherlands. She died last Sunday in the living room of her home in Arnhem, surrounded by members of her family: she had stopped drinking and eating. Noa had been raped when she was just a child and from that moment, as she herself wrote, she had breathed but never lived. Anorexia, depression, post-traumatic stress disorder, had accompanied her day and night during these years.
a story of Noa has commoso the world. With his eyes he tried to catch the light even when he didn't see it in his life, on Fb he wrote that difficult moments can always be on the doorstep, and that it didn't matter how hard they were, because you have to go on. Come on, go and get up again, so take courage. But then Noa at some point, perhaps last year, realized that going ahead was like climbing a mountain without end, that it would no longer be able to find the strength to move forward. He tried and threw in the towel. At the age of 17, with his mother's consent, he contacted a center for euthanasia in the Netherlands, where the practice is legalized, to activate the necessary process. In an interview, however, she herself said that her request had been refused.
"The question was refused because I am too young and I would have had to face a path of recovery from psychic trauma up to at least 21 years before."
Noa had managed to turn her suffering into pages laden with words. With his book "Winning or Learning", his autobiography, he wanted to help other young people like her, arguing that the Netherlands has no specialized institutions or clinics that kids can turn to for psychological support.
On his profile Instagram Noa has published a photo of him writing a last long farewell message. «For a long time I thought about sharing this last post. Maybe it will seem unexpected, but this is a project I have had for a long time, it is not an impulse decision. I will die within a maximum of 10 days. After years of battles, the fight is over. I stopped drinking and eating and after much discussion and evaluation, it was decided to let me go because my suffering is unbearable ». Noa continues: "I breathe, but I never lived." And he concludes by asking friends and over 8 thousand followers of «Don't try to convince her». "Love is letting go, anyway," he concluded.